HURT DA MOST...

SO STRESS... SO TIRED... SO TENSION... SO HURT....

I've never been like this before... So stress with everything right now.. So tension with everything at this moment.. So tired every second everyday.. So hurt, trully hurt with ppl i thought can gv me a support & strength..

Yesterday was terribly bad.. I lost my patience and having an argument with sisters in front of my parents.. Juz a small cranky thinggy.. Condemn me on things dat i haven't do this and that.. Pressure me on things dat i need to do in hurry and pressure me on da lack of times i have... I've already manage my time on what should i do n where should i start and when to start on certain things.. but the pressure they gv me makes me lost control and when the arguments started, i end it up with, "I'm so damn tired with burdens i carried right now.. Pls don't add any burden to me..PLEASE!!!'.. and i walked away from them and started crying.. All this while i keep on silent on any stressed given to me by them.. but yesterday i juz can't stop myself from getting terribly mad... Nearly cry infront of my mom n dad..

I'm so hurt and dissapointed with my sisters.. Why are they gvg me all this stress and pressure me when they know at this moment i trully need eir support... i didn't ask for material, money or even a hand of help.. Juz asking for a moral support... I'm trully dissapointed with them... So damn dissapointed... After that argument, i get in my room and crying for da whole day....

All this while i've admit i'm not a good lil sis to them.. but i'm trying my best to gv da best to them to go through eir hardest time.... but why can't they do da same thing to me???

Bukan nak sangat balasan atas apa yang dah bagi kat mereka.. Bukan nak dibalas jasa yang da buat sblm ni.. bukan nak mengungkit... p nak supaya mereka MEMAHAMI.. Kalo bukan diorg, sapa lagi??? Skrg hanya blh tawakal jek.. Syukati korg la nak ckp apa, nak buat apa.. p mmg KECEWA teramat sbb tak blh nak faham adik sndri... Kecewa teramat sangat... Terima kasih sbb biarkan airmata ni mengalir sepanjang hari...

Satu jek nak mintak skrg ni.. Diri ni dah terasa susah sgt2, TOLONGLAH jangan tambah susah ni lagi.. Tolonglah... Tolonglah...